love me right

when will you be the one

to grab me

tell me shame-faced

"i think this is different, i think.."

run around in circles. go 'head, i know

come up with ways to charm this same-sexed mystery

choking on suggestions, things you should mention

so as to not come off.. you know "homo"

are you gonna..

hold back,

re-

press, 

re-

gress?

like

I

have..

cuz

I 

have

my hands are tired of writing nameless letters

i repeat, cuz i love

   and repeat cuz i love 

and repeat cuz i love

cuz I have.

imagining how nice 

it

 would be

without your

boy

friend

do you know how it is?

knowing I can't have that privilege?

to look at you like he does

even if this is not love

id like the choice

some comfort

when will you love me outdoors like you do

in?

i wanna love you 

e-v-e-r-y-w-h-e-r-e

every state 

every city

every room

every place.

you only love me in secrets

in metaphors,

and similes

even synonyms

in speechlessness and pensiveness

in anger and fear

in every emotion

but never in person, 

much less is it spoken

 and i'm not that person you'd like to be.

the one to polish and refine

i just want comfort

to know you can speak, 

move, breathe

that you too

are comfortable, 

with us, like them.