Adios Amor

I was involved with a girl for almost two years now, we recently decided to discontinue our relationship because I guess we cant find a way to deal with long distance.

I'm trying to figure out how I feel about it all now as I enjoy the lovely flooding throughout the roads of RI during my spring break ._.

Its hard to accept that sometimes the odds are simply against you and its time to move on, cus you can't beat them, nor try to any longer.

I love her, and hold her dear to heart but some things have to change and I'm ready for new beginnings, fresh conversations and new faces. Time to experience a new stage in my life on my own and just see where life takes me if I roll with it instead of staying back trying to connect paths with everyone else.

"I do what I want"-from now on.

wish me luck.

march twenty-eighth twenty-ten

Its Sunday and I just got home from a fourteen hour shift, a good way to start the week?

last week was one of the toughest weeks at this stage in my life, emotionally and psychologically.

It's been hard to come to the realization that a lot of the people in my life, or who were in my life for that matter, were simply not worth it.

that I spent nights worrying, and caring for people that were never to come close to the image I held of them.

I do expect too much from them, because I do, do too much for them

I'm sick of misunderstandings that people will not accept as a misunderstanding. Seriously?

text messages were not meant for whole conversations, to avoid misunderstandings, and your mind from interpreting my responses in the most negative way, if you can text, you must have my number. call.

they need to chill the fuck out.

I have a lot of goals in mind for this year that I really want to accomplish.

I was

• selfless
• sensitive
• reserved
• preoccupied
• stressed

I want

• to put myself out there
• stop caring too much
• be selfish not selfless

I will be

• relaxed
• carefree as can be
• assertive
• active

i am

• productive
• hopeful
• proud
• ambitious :]

the year of the technologically savvy

Usually,
I compress my thoughts
into interweb interfaces
so you could
scroll click configure
your own interpretation
Modern age technology for your
analyzers
Your pigmented imagination
wont make this any clearer
Can't help you figure
what lingers in processing
innards
comprehend the weirdly working wires of my
websites
That site the sources of the
sicknesses
Sickbeds of viruses invading the privacy of your
curious nature
Virtually eating you up
Or let be me
With updates and templates
Temples of temporary
relief
to feed your amateur addiction to
interest
with none other than the right
Non-fiction intellect established
nineteen
ninety
one

reflection

I'm over the idea of staying connected with people, especially with those who are not actively in my life for whatever reason.

I'm really into the idea of meeting new people and learning from the good and bad experiences to make up for lost time in the future.

of course I am holding on to all those that show effort to continue making memories

but what memories have seized to develop

are just memories to be reminisced

no longer dwelled.

yep. thats a mighty fine idea I got there.

conventional

love.. love, the immaculate.

a bell to ring on a finger

a couple to wed lock in bedrocks ways

simple pleasures

an accumulation of memories

enough to spend energies on expectations

buried in between four walls

in between one sheet

he for she

for eternity

until death severs parts

that the heart would not trot

yet perfection lingers and floats

like the souls of the solstice

ghosts angry and hopeless

all for you,

they do.